DONT REALLY KNOW WHAT TO BLOG ABOUT REALLY, JUST DOING IT FOR THE SAKE OF IT TODAY!!!!! HOW ARE YOU ALL? BORED AT WORK AND BLOGGING IN YOUR LUNCH HOURS I HOPE!!!!!!
AS FOR ME, IM OFF TO A BORING BAND REHEARSAL, WITH OUR NEW DRUMMER ADAM...HE'S COOL AND LOOKS A LITTLE LIKE CARTMAN! BUT THAT DOESNT MAKE THE REHEARSAL MORE INTERESTING!
MY RABBIT IS LOVING SOME BROCCOLI RIGHT NOW AND TINKS IS HANGING ON TO HER BARS WAITING FOR A YOGHURT TREAT! AS FOR SULLY AND DOGGY (THE OTHER 2 RATS) THERE ASLEEP TOGETHER...AWWWWWWWW!
IM GOING TO BREED SULLY AND TINKS SOON AS THEY ARE DUMBO EARED RATS AND QUITE EXPENSIVE, SO IF YOU WANT A RAT BABY, LET ME KNOW!...UNLESS YOU WANT TO FEED THEM TO SNAKES....ILL BITE YOU ALOT IF YOU DO!!!!!
AS FOR TIM, HE'S GONE OFF TO TEACH DRUMS, BLESS HIS LITTLE COTTONS!
PLANNING TO SEE MY MATE JEN THIS WEEK! SHE IS A SEX GODDESS WITH REALLY COOL IDEAS ON LIFE! I MISS HER, SHE LIVES IN BATH!!!!!
RIGHT, I SUPPOSE ID BETTER GO AND DRY THE HAIR! IT IS DOWN AT MY BUM RIGHT NOW AND IN DIER NEED OF A CUT BEFORE I GET MISTAKEN AS A TROLL!!!!!
LOST ANOTHER POUND! YAY ME!!!!!!
KEEP GOING ALL YOU WEIGHT LOSERS OUT THERE!!!!
LESS FOOD, MORE BOOZE I SAY!!!!!!
LOVE YOU ALL! XXX

I ALSO WANT TO START AN ONLINE BOOK CLUB IF ANYBODY IS INTERESTED? I KNOW THAT ALOT OF YOU LOVE TO READ SO ANY SUGGESTIONS FOR BOOKS WOULD BE GREAT!!!!
HERE IS MY LIST SO FAR:
MY FAVE, AND ONE I HAVE ALREADY SUGGESTED: WOMEN WHO RUN WITH THE WOLVES :CLARISSA PINKOLA ESTES
THE GIFT: LEWIS HYDE
TUESDAYS WITH MORRIE: MITCH ALBOM
HALF OF A YELLOW SUN: CHIMAMANDA NGOZI ADICHE
M.K GHANDI: AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY
THE PLAY ETHIC: PAT KANE
THE FABRIC OF THE COSMOS: BRIAN GREENE
SEPULCHRE: KATE MOSSE
THE LOVELY BONES: ALICE SEBOLD
WHITE TEETH: ZADIE SMITH
THE TAO OF WILLIE: WILLIE NELSON
THE SENSE OF BEING STARED AT: RUPERT SHELDRAKE
THE LUCIFER CODE: MICHAEL CORDY
SNOW: MAXINE FERMINE
THE GIRL FROM CHIMEL: RIGOBERTA MENCHU AND DANTE LIANO
THE WITCH OF PORTOBELLO: PAULO COELHO
THE ESSENTIAL JUNG: ANTHONY STORR

IF YOU HAVE ANY YOU WANT TO READ THAT YOU COULD SUGGEST OR HAVE READ FOR THE LIST, LET ME KNOW!
THE FIRST BOOK TO READ WILL BE THE GIFT BY LEWIS HYDE. IT IS A BOOK ABOUT CREATIVITY AND HAS JUST BEEN RE RELEASED BY POPULAR DEMAND. IT IS SUITABLE FOR EVERY ONE AND IS MEANT TO INSPIRE ANY ONW WITH THEIR MORE CREATIVE NATURE!
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THE BLURB READS:
A BRILLIANTLY ARGUED DEFENCE OF THE IMPORTANCE OF CREATIVITY IN OUR INCREASINGLY MONET- ORIENTATED WORLD. THE GIFT IS A MODERN CLASSIC. IT IS EVEN MORE RELEVANT TODAY THAN WHEN IT ORIGINALLY APPEARED TWENTY YEARS AGO. ONE OF THE MOST ACCLAIMED BOOKS FO THE YEAR, BELOVED BY ARTISTS, WRITER AND THINKERS, THE GIFT WILL TRANSFORM THE WAY YOU LOOK AT THE WORLD.
QUOTES FROM THE CRITCS: BUY SEVERAL COPIES, ONE FOR YOURSELF AND THE REST FOR YOUR FRIENDS INTERESTED IN, WELL ANYTHING! GEOFF DYER

HOPEFUL, BEAUTIFUL AND PROFOUND, IT WILL CHANGE THE WAY YOU LOOK AT EVERYTHING; INDEPENDANT ON SUNDAY

TIGER BALM FOR TIRED MINDS; SUNDAY TIMES

A MASTER PIECE MARGARET; ATWOOD
REMINDS US OF OUR CULTURAL GIFTS AND OUR RESPONSIBILTIES TO THEM, A MANIFEST FO SORTS: ZADIE SMITH

SO THERE YOU ARE! INTERESTED IN READING IT TOO? LET ME KNOW AND WE WILL READ IT ALL TOGETHER!!!!!

WELL, AS YOU KNOW, THE ONGOING CAMPAIGN OF GETTING YOU TO GIVE ME IDEAS AND INSPIRATIONS TO TRY IS STILL ON GOING AND I DONT EXPECT ANY MORE SLACKING!!! IVE ONLY GOT A FEW MORE TO ACHIEVE BEFORE I NEED A FRESH BATCH! AS FOR DECISION NUMBER 5 - LEARN THE ART OF ORIGAMI. WELL, ON MY WAY TO WATER STONES YESTERDAY, I PICKED UP A COUPLE OF BOOKS ON ORIGAMI TO START OFF THIS LIFE CHALLENGE FROM FELLOW BLOGGER! IVE MADE MYSELF A BUTTRFLY AND A CRANE!!!! YAY! NOW SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING MAKING THE ELEPHANT AT THE BACK OF THE BOOK AS FEEL THIS MIGHT BE A GREAT SUCCESS! WHO EVER THOUGHT THAT FOLDING PAPER COULD BE DE- STRESSING AND FILL YOU WITH A COMPLETE SENSE OF SATISFACTION IN YOURSELF!!!!! DID YOU ALSO KNOW THAT THERE IS AN ORIGAMI CLUB YOU CAN JOIN?!!!! AMAZING!!!!
I WILL KEEP YOU UPDATED AND PROMISE TO POST PICCIES OF ALL SORTS OF THINGS SOOOONNN!!!!

is it sick that i loved sweeney todd and mr depp playing a sick twisted killer? if any one has seen that movie yet, what do you think? i forgot that it would all be sang!!!!! mr depp does have a mighty fine voice though, even if he is slitting peeps throat whilst doing it!!!!

wowsa! well, thanks to the blogger who told me to audition for x factor, i have come to realise that a life on the stage is my dream and i had forgotten that for a looooooong time! thanks to fellow blogger advice about networking, i am going to try my best to schmooze with some celebrity type people........how do you do that?!!!!! where do you go, who do you talk to....any advice?....i dont know!!!!!! my dreams of being the next kate winslet are far from being realised!!!!! but it has given me determination to go for drams achool, keep losing weight and get fit and i bought my subcription to the stage this morning!!!
meeting up with an old friend of mine this arvo who also wants to get back into the scene!
also went to good old waterstones and bought the actors year book and monolgue stuff....its all very overwhelming!!!!!
maybe im being a complete idiot to try and do this, i dont know!!!! but it will be a laugh finding out!!!!! im alot older than the 18 somethings fresh out of theatre companies although im on the stage every weekend earning my dinner with the soul band.....i dont know! ive just got to follow my dream, how ever weird and stupid it might seem now, however distant, im going to do it....and who knows? maybe x factor blogger will get half my millions if i succeed! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!!!! plus, it will be a good laugh for you all to watch if i get on it!!!!! i expect votes!!!!!

i really didnt feel like getting up this morning!!!!!! the bed was so snuggly....why does it feel more warm, more comfy when you want to leave it, when the night before, the last thing you want to do is get in it?!!!!!
OH MY GOD! IVE JUST HEARD MACCY D'S IS ALOUD TO ISSUE A LEVELS!!!!!!! that cant be good?!!!! wow, this days is weird already. have i woken up on the right planet? or am i in a parallel universe?
p.s ive sent off my application for the x factor! thanks blogger friends....if i get on i will cack my pants!!!! and ill blame YOU!!!! ive lost another 3 pounds also!!! yay!!!!!
next learn the art of origami!!!!!!!!!
good morning blog world! love to all you georgous peeps!!!!

do you ever here yourself give other people advice that you know you should be taking yourself? i did a tarot reading today and i heard the words come out of my mouth for the first time as a third person. i literally had a birds eye view of myself looking down thinking oh my god! why dont i listen to myself? why dont i have the balls to listen to myself?'
its that well known trait of f.e.a.r, that stops us from hearing our own words because actually, that means we have to take responsibility for them and lead by example. for so long i havent been listening. for so long, i have hid behind my own advice, which it seems i have a narural gift for because people pay me to give it to them!
suddenly im not so scared about my life! im not so scared to try really hard things, because actually, they are really easy! we only make them hard in order to stay safe, to stay in a rut and to moan about them. thats the easy route. the hard part is taking the responsibilty to go through with things! and its exciting...truly exciting people!!!!
i was giving this reading to a young girl who was confused about her partner. she wanted to settle down and have kids with a man that she didnt even know she loved. the cards kept pointing towards pandorras box and the crossroads. i asked her to search her soul as to why she felt that she had to settle down so young, what was she escaping that put her at the cross roads?
she then went on to say that her dream was to be a lawyer, but she was too scared to go to uni incase she lost her partner. she then also divulged that her grandad had passed on and that she didnt want to be a failure in her families eyes if she was to go to uni and then not get a job in law.
and then it happened! i shot out of my body and heard my response to her! i went on to say that it shouldnt matter what anybody thinks of you as long as you feel like a success in your own right, on your own terms. that it was better to try and fail then not try at all. and that if her partner loved her, he would support and stay with her!
i also said that one day she would look back at this point in her life and regret it, if she settled down for all the wrong reasons, because she was scared of failure, scared to try and change her life, scared of her own success and what power thatmay give her!

i write this to inspire people to live their dreams. no matter how unrealistic they may seem to you in your present reality, no matter how old or young you may be, no matter whether you have the skills already, or if you need to learn them. DO IT! JUST DO IT!then if it doesnt work, you know you have given it your best shot. that yes, you may be rejected by what you want, but that is no excuse for giving up on the best person you can be.
you owe it to yourself to live the life you always wanted. you may have to make sacrifices, you may rock the boat so violently that someone falls out, but you know what? there is always a life ring waiting for you in that big ocean we call life.

so make it part of your resolutions to try something you always wanted to try and live the dream, whatever that may be. it would be insulting to the world to deny us your gift, your ideas, and your great heart and soul.

i await results with baited breath!

OK THESPIANS OUT THERE! I NEED YOUR HELP!i have decided on my life mission to go back to acting as it is my one regret in life! im out of practice completely, havent done it for 8 years, but now i feel ready again!. ive always loved acting. i hold the record for the youngest person in the uk to achieve the lamda acting diploma, ive been in lots of plays, mostly musicals and have done all my acting exams and loads of festivals. i auditioned for rada once and they told me that my acting skill was too mature for my age, which at the time knocked my confidence, but now i see it as a compliment! i stoppped after that.
so i need help and advice from those in the trade as i have decided that i need to go to acting school or just start auditioning for stuff. and not let anything knock my confidence.
i need advice on teachers, contacts, tips and useful internet sights!
if anyone knows anything, please give me some advice!!!! x

my little ratty has just learnt a new trick! she's the newest of the bunch (i have raised 43 in my lifetime) and definitely the most mischievious! ive been taming her for 3 months now and she has learnt her name, how to climb up my body from the floor,come shopping with me and jump from my shoulder onto someone elses. today, she has learnt how to follow my feet up and down the stairs!!! it is so cute! i call out her name, then run up the stairs and she follows behind me!. then she jumps up onto my shoulder and gets a treat....sssoooo cute! then i go down the stairs and she does the same! after about 15 mins, she sits on my foor which is an indication that she wants to stop and i carry her, on my foot to her cage!
im so proud of her! next im going to teach her how to work out a maze! and then how to rob a bank! when she has learnt this, ill buy you all a drink!!!!

well, today, i have been mostly brushing up on my hawaiian mythology for the course that i am writing at the moment on...you've guessed it, hawaiian dieties. did you know that they have a god that if you pray to it, it kills you? he's called ouli and he's mean! also there is a god that kills trees (kalaipahoa) and another god that kills men?!!!!(kuahana). i swear, i would have actually gone to church as a kid if religion was that crazy in there!!!!
i find religion so fascinating, as my family is from all around the world and have all different back grounds. i studied buddhist philosophy, paganism, christianity, hinduism and egyptology in school and have never been so amused by the great stories they tell. really, if you wanna good read, go into religious texts, they truly are the best thrillers, you will ever get your teeth into!
eat you heart out j.k rowling!!!!!

WELL, AS YOU KNOW, I HAVE BEEN ASKING PEOPLE FOR INSPIRING IDEAS TO TRY AND TEST, AS I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE! THIS IS AN UPDATE ON LIFE DECISION THREE: TO APPEAR IN A NATIONAL MAGAZINE O0R NEWS PAPER!
I HAVE ACHIEVED IT!!!! I CONTACTED SPIRIT AND DESTINY MAGAZINE ABOUT DOING AN ARTICLE ON HAWAIIAN SHELL HEALING AND PRODUCING AN ORACLE FOR THEIR MAG.....AND THEY LOVED IT! SO, ALL GOING WELL, IT WILL GO AHEAD!
STILL YET TO ACHIEVE:
DRINKING GUINNESS AND EATING OYSTERS
AUDITION FOR THE X FACTOR
LEARN THE ART OF ORIGAMI
KEEP THEM COMING PEOPLE, ANYTHING WILL DO, AND I PROMISE TO KEEP BLOGGING THE RESULTS!
P.S REMEMBER THAT IF I EARN ANY MONEY WITH YOUR IDEA, WE SPLIT THE PROFITS!!!!

hi guys, im back from beau paris!!! i had such a lovely time, just what i needed to inspire my imagination! i did miss you all! shall i tell you about my trip?....ok then!

well, tim and i left on wednesday as you probably know and got to paris at 12 in the afternoon. we stayed in the holiday inn near chessy station which is convenientally 5 mins from central paris and 2 mins from eurodisney! tim had bought us tickets to go to the parks, which was great as i used to work for disney and love to feel like a 5 year old on roller coasters! the hotel was beautiful and looked over a lake! not bad for a holiday inn!

DAY ONE
we decided that we had to do the louvre first as i love art and couldnt wait to see the mona lisa and the giant egyptian artifact collection they have there. i also wanted to imagine myself as a super sleuth from 'the davinci code' novel by dan brown!!!
so off we went to the louvre on our first day! if you have never been there before IT IS HUMUNGOUS!!!!!! 3 miles off pure art!!!! leonardo davinci's art is so ahead of its time and the spanish paintings were so vibrant!
i was blown away by the amount of egyptian antiques they had....including a real life embalmed mummy! tim and i had gone to luxor last year as i used to study egyptology and absolutely loved it! we made friends with some local guys who ended up giving us a guided tour of all the temples for a third of the price that any of the companys were offering. they spoke very good english and one of them taught egyptology at the local school. we spent the whole holiday with them going to meet their friends down dodgy back streets, smoking sheesha pipes on their falluca and they even caught us fresh fish one evening as we all watched the sunset on their boat. it was all i had imagined it to be, and i fell in love with luxor instantly...i digress!
when i saw all of the statues, jewellery and sarcophogus in the louvre, it made me cry at its beauty!
we spent a whole day there, but we could have easily spent another. in the evening, we went into notre dame and watched a christening take place. the beautiful gregorian choir sang to the roof tops, it really was divine. i am not a religous person, but there is something to be said for the amazing energy of that place. you feel that angels are going to decend from the walls and swoop down infront of you. it is the closest i have ever got to a heavenly experience.
we walked back along the seine and looked oput over the eiffel tower, which was completely lit up from top to bottom in fairy lights!
we eventually got back to the hotel, and slept like logs!

DAY TWO
we woke up nice and early and decided that today, we would go to the sacre coeur! so off we went and climbed up the hill to the very top and looked out over the whole of paris. remeniscent of a scene from the moulin rouge, we could see everything from the louvre to the l'arc de triomphe....spectacular!
we walked through the artisan court yard which had loads of local painters working away on local scenes. the were many artists hustling to draw the tourists! luckily, i can speak french relatively well as my family originate from france and spain so i had fun taunting them and making them laugh!
we ended up in this beautiful little piano bar which has tourist memorobilia all over the walls! literally! there were photos of couples, people had written letters and stuck them up, there were different kinds of money, peoples old train tickets, envelopes and messages that people had written on old receipts and the like stuck everywhere, from the walls to the ceiling!!! so naturally, tim and i added a message! we drank chocolat chaud and felt all snuggly and warm....ah bien!
we made our way back to the hotel, and slept like logs!

DAY THREE
well, we decided to go and see le place de concorde, l'arc de triomphe, moulin rouge and the main town before tomorrow, wghere we hit the parks. so off we went! we went through the beautiful park from the louvre to place de concorde and joined the hum drum of people looking for chanel and cartier boutiques. i couldnt believe how much people pay for this stuff....c'est tres ridiculous!!!!!
anyway, it was fun to see the people that shop there with their fur coats and big sunnies and even bigger coiffered hair!
we had lunch and got a bit bored so went back to the hotel, had dinner and used the gym (yes, im still losing weight!) and, you've guessed it...slept like logs.

DAY FOUR
disney land! people that turn their nose up at walt's creations dont know what they're missing!the amount of work that goes into every detail of the buildings right down to the staffs uniforms is quite spectacular. the parades are beautiful and the stage shows are as good as going to the theatre, especially the lion king. everything is clean and each building and ride has its own character. it truly is magical there!
i love roller coasters so you could imagine my happiness when we found that there was no more than ten minute waits for every single ride!! obviously, this time of year is fab as it is cold and wet and the kids have gone back to school so tim and i had a field day. we managed to go on the tower of terror 8 times, crush's roller coaster 4 times, space mountain 4 times, indiana jones 3 times and the run away train 5 times! we saw all the shows and watched all the stunt spectaculars and all the parades! it was really good fun, and we managed to get our photo taken with every character. it made me miss working for disney as it truly was one of the best jobs i ever had. i used to be snow white, esmerelda and pocahontas for the kids and it was great fun! ill have to upload some photos of me in the good old days for you all to laugh at!
when we had finished with the day, we ate in the rainforest cafe which is set out like a jungle with parrots, gorillas and elephants poking out of the walls. they are all animatronic and move around and make noises..very entertaining! every so often there is a thunder storm with flashing lights and all the animals go wild! if you have never been, it's a real laugh!
at the end of the day, we trundled back to the hotel.....and slept like logs!

DAY FIVE
well, it was our last day, and out 2 year wedding aniversary! we had another day in the parks, riding our hearts out, buying silly hats and disney books in french!
we went to planet hollywood for dinner and got a leeetle bit drunk!!!
after stumbling back to the hotel, we didnt sleep like logs, but had a lovely romantic night full of paris fever! im not one to kiss and tell, BUT IT WAS FUN!!!!!

DAY SIX
back home....boooo! back to the real world of non decisions and washing up. i had a fantastic time and tim and i are now more in love than ever.

i truly am the luckiest girl in the world! romantic men out there, keep up the good work! you are handsome, giving and a credit to the men of the world! jack the lads take note from your fellow knights in shining armour! you may be having fun but there is so much beauty in committing to one person. you get to share your whole world with them, you learn to love them in new ways everytime you grow, and you are never left wanting more, because what you have fills you to the brim with a happiness and love that the angels will lie down and be still for.
if you havent found that person yet, keep looking and if you have, be proud to love them and tell the world about it....we all need a little hope in happily ever after!

a bientot! belles et bets!xxx

HOW AMAZING IS MY MAN! as a surprise for our 2nd wedding anniversary, tim is taking me to paris for 5 days!!!!! how romantic! just letting you know i wont be blogging for this time, but will let you know what happens when i get back! aurevoir mon petit fleurs!!!!!!
love is a many splendid thing!!!!

as promised, for those of you on a weight loss mission, here is a recipe for some seriously hot soup! as you probably already know, chillis are great for raising the metabolism, shifting colds and clearing out you nether regions! this soup takes 15 mins and is ideal if you wanna shift the pounds!
ingredients:
half large can of red kidney beans
small can of butter beans
2 sprigs of spring onion
1 small onion
2 sticks of celery
1 medium sized jar of lloyd grossman's tomato and chilli sauce
half pint of water
2 cubes of vegetable bouillon
2 spoonfuls of lazy chillis (makes it very hot, try one teaspoon first and taste)
1 red pepper

makes soup for 4 large servings. total calorie count for whole vat 400 cals. fat...approx 7-8 grams

ok, so bung in the water, 2 veg cubes and lloyd sauce into a large saucepan and bring to the boil. cut up veg into samll pieces or leave chunky if so desired. the soup is a kind of broth, so totally up to you.once the pan has boiled, simmer as you add the cut up veg and beans. leave on the hob for 15 mins.....done! stirr it up and serve from the bottom of the pan, as all the veg congregates there.
keeps for about 4 days in the fridge. i have been having it for lunch with 2 ryvita for about a week and the weight is falling off! plus, because it is hot, you fill up quicker!!!
tada!!!! good luck slimmers out there....next week, butternut squash and sweet potato soup...mmmmm....creamy!

well, as many of you know, i have started an online campaign to take peoples ideas and inspirations and try them out, as i have just left my job and want my life to be a bit more interesting! i am achieving the first 2 right now!
here is an update of my journey so far!
LIFE DECISION ONE:WEIGHT LOSS
well, one blogger friend gave me the idea to lose weight as she has always wanted to do that, so conveniently, i need to lose some right now and embarked on the journey that is weight loss! so far so good! my hubbie has noticed the weight going from my face and i have been eating the most marvelous soup (recipe to follow!) that has been shedding pounds! i have also bought some excercise vids and i am really feeling the benefits of health. i highly recommend it! the question is, why havent i done it before?!!!! cake is far less satisfying than natural yoghurt, sprinkled with blueberries, meusli and honey! as long as you dont see it as a diet as so much healthy eating, it is actually very easy to do! and you dont feel down trodden and ugly after eating roasted butternut squash! come on people....DO IT!
i went to the gym this weekend with my friend gerri to do a weights class! OH MY GOD.....SHE MUST HAVE A DEATH WISH!!!!!! the class teacher was four foot nothing, very skinny and had weights the size of outer mongolia on her rod!!! she was also a bit like a terrior and told me off half way through as i was laughing at myself in the mirror with my tiny weights! she stomped over to me and shouted 'what is this? comedy corner?!' that made every one laugh!!!!
today i am feeling the rath of muscle rips and can barely move!!!!

LIFE DECISION 2:SHOUT MY VEXES AT THE SEA
well, onwards and upwards goes the weight loss and so, i thought id do life decision 2 since the weather has been so dramatic! i was asked to go down to the sea on a stormy day and shout all my vexes out into the ocean.....EVERY ONE SHOULD DO IT! remeniscent of sense and sensibility when marriane goes up to the hill and looks longingly out to willoughby's mansion, i got very wet and very emotional with this one.
i went down to a beach called freathy near cawsand just as it started to get dark yesterday evening. it was wet and windy and my cheeks were burning in the cold. i looked out at the sea for along time, thinking about what i should say....and then it all came to me. i didnt even have to think! all these things i had been holding onto, just came tumbling out of my mouth like water itself. as the sea was crashing, i was crashing back with my words. i ran from one end of the beach to the other, just letting it all out. i sang a song and danced in the sand. no one was there because the weather was so miserable, but that only added to the feeling of being free. when i had puffed myself out. i just stood there. rain pouring down my face with my tears, sking pumping with blood. i felt alive and calm for the first time in ages.
forget anti stress books....JUST DO THIS! i have never felt so alive as i did in that moment.
i dedicate this blog to the 2 people who suggested these inspiring decisions....you know who you are!!! thankyou for improving my life!

next up:
learn the art of origami
eat oysters and drink guiness
get into a national paper or mag
audition for x factor

watch this space!

it seems to me that alot of us are finding hard to be happy in the new year! why is this?! it is such an inspiring time! the rain cleanses the earth, the wind blows out the cobwebs and the dark helps us to seek out the light. how beautiful it is! plus, you have the added advantage of starting afresh, recollecting the past year and changing things for the better.
i firmly believe that if you can be miserable in this time, you need to change things....drastically! dont be afraid! it is easy to moan about stuff, but it is far more rewarding to say 'actually, im brilliant, i love my life, i love my job and i love my positive attitude'. there is always duality with negativity....a flip side if you will. IT IS NOT AS HARD AS YOU THINK! THERE IS NO EXCUSE TO CONTINUE BEING MISERABLE!!!!
instead of resisting the weather, embrace and learn from it. instead of moaning about health issues, try your best to work with it and see it in a positive light. instead of hating your job, change it! put your energy into productivity mode! the more you fuel the bad, the MORE bad you'll get out. the more you try to be positive, the EASIER and more beautiful your life gets.
so, as a kick start, i have put together a survival kit for the positivity challenged! let me know how you get on!
1) if you are a woman, buy the book 'woman who run with the wolves' by clarissa pinkola estes. this book should be issued to every woman when they are born...it will change your life!
2) if you are a man, get yourself 'the tao of willie' by willy nelson and turk pipkin...a very wholsome guide to life!
3) watch the following films: last holiday, starring queen latifa
pursuit of happiness, starring will smith

4) buy yourself a 'bop it' game....it's really fun and good for the responses!
5)if you have a wii, get wii fit.....best excercise you can have!
6) best exfoliator, from lush named 'angel on bare skin' it will just make you glow! tim love it!
7) eat some chilli based foods to keep you warm
8) write a letter to someone...theraputic and a lost art! makes you feel better!
9) buy a mini trampolene from argos....jumping on it makes you smile soooo much!
10)de clutter your surroundings...nostalgic, and beneficial as you can sell the junk at a car boot!
if you can add anything, let me know!!!! over and out!

i declare today 'international friendship day'. this is in honour of my beautiful friends. arent mates amazing? just when you think you are bumbling through life, they surprise you with their nourishment and help you find direction again. i think everyone should call an old friend today that you havent been in contact with for ages and have a natter.

THANKYOU FOR YOUR IDEAS SO FAR GUYS! YOU REALLY ARE A CREATIVE BUNCH! IF YOU DONT ALREADY KNOW, I HAVE STARTED AN ONLINE CAMPAIGN TO GIVE ME CREATIVE DREAMS AND INSPIRATIONS FOR ME TO DO SINCE QUITTING MY JOB!SINCE I HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT WHAT I WANT TO DO NEXT, I HAVE THROWN IT OPEN TO YOU, THE PEOPLE TO DECIDE! SO FAR SO GOOD! YOUR IDEAS INCLUDE: LOSING WEIGHT,SHOUTING VEXES AT THE SEA,LEARNING ORIGAMI,APPEARING IN A NATIONAL NEWSPAPER OR MAGAZINE,DRINKING GUINESS AND EATING OYSTERS, AND...APPEARING ON THE X FACTOR!!!!! AS FROM MONDAY, I WILL BE BLOGGING MY EXPERIENCES AND FILMING THE TASKS YOU HAVE SET ME! I WILL TRY MY BEST TO DO EVERYTHING SUGGESTED, UNLESS IT HARMS OTHER PEOPLE OR CAUSES ME TO GO TO JAIL! IF ANY OF YOUR IDEAS MAKE ME MONEY, I SPLIT IT WITH THE BLOGGER WHO SUGGESTED IT! SIMPLE! SO WATCH THIS SPACE FOR SOME...ER.. AMUSING ANTICS!!!!! STILL NEED MORE ASPERATIONS, SO JOIN IN THE PARTY!!!!! SIGNING OUT. SKYLA!!!!XXXX

WELL, KEEP THE IDEAS A COMING! AS SAID EARLIER, IF ANY OF YOUR IDEAS MAKE ME MONEY,ILL SPLIT IT WITH THE BLOGGER WHO GAVE ME THE IDEA! IM OFF TO GUILDFORD NOW, SO MAYBE THE GUINNESS AND OYSTERS IDEA WILL BE THE NEXT DECISION I GET UNDER MY BELT! TECHNICALLY, NOT GOOD FOR THE LOSING WEIGHT DECISION...BUT I GOTTA DO WHAT YOU SAY, SO HERE GOES! REMEMBER, YOU CONTROL MY DESTINY RIGHT NOW, SO SEND ME YOUR DREAMS AND LETS HAVE SOME FUN! ALL EXPERIENCES I HAVE WILL BE BLOGGED AND FILMED.
UPDATE ON YOUR LIFE DECISIONS I HAVE TO DO SO FAR:
LOSE WEIGHT
SHOUT AT THE SEA ALL MY VEXES
DRINK GUINNESS AND EAT FRESH OYSTERS
LEARN THE ART OF ORIGAMI
GET INTO A NATIONAL MAG OR PAPER!

YOU MAKE THE RULES...YOUR WISH IS MY COMMAND!...SEE YA SOON!

SO HERE IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO SO FAR: LOSE WEIGHT
SHOUT MY VEXES AT THE SEA
DRINK GUINNESS AND EAT OYSTERS
(EVEN THOUGH IM VEGGIE!)
GET IN A NATIONAL MAG OR PAPER
AND LEARN THE ART OF ORIGAMI!
CONSIDER IT DONE! TO START THE TREND, WENT INTO TOWN YESTERDAY, STOCKED UP ON HEALTHY FOOD AND BOUGHT SOME DANCE EXCERCISE VIDEOS! SO WEIGHT LOSS IS STARTING! IM GOING TO GET MY MATE STAN TO VIDEO THE WHOLE THING AND THEN PUT IT UP FOR ALL TO SEE! I SHALL ALSO BLOG ALL MY EXPERIENCES! I THINK I CAN AVERAGE ABOUT TEN IDEAS A MONTH SO DONT BE SHY! THE BIGGER AND BRIGHTER, THE BETTER! TAKE CARE, SEE YOU SOON!

OK GUYS! SO FAR YOUR IDEAS ARE COMING IN SLOW AND STEADY! IM GOING TO UP THE GAME A LITTLE: IF I MAKE ANY MONEY FROM YOUR IDEAS, I SPLIT IT WITH YOU! THATS RIGHT! SEND IN A DREAM OF YOURS TO FULFIL AND I WILL DO IT! IF IT MAKES ME CASH, ILL SPLIT IT WITH THE BLOGGER WHO SUGGESTED IT! FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT NEED AN UPDATE, I HAVE RECENTLY LEFT MY JOB IN SEARCH OF FULFILLING MY HUMBLE EXISTANCE. I WANT IDEAS FROM ADULTS AND CHILDREN ALIKE. BE AS CREATIVE AND IMAGINATIVE AS YOU CAN! EVERY MONTH I WILL TRY AND FULFIL YOUR DREAMS AND IDEAS AND THEN BLOG THE RESULTS!
SO GO ON, GET CREATIVE!!!! LETS HAVE SOME FUN!

OK, IM LOGGING OUT UNTIL TOMORROW...NEED MORE OF YOU TO BE INVOLVED! I AM TRYING TO LIVE AS MANY PEOPLES DREAMS AS POSSIBLE, WHETHER IT'S A DREAM MEAL, TO A DREAM HOLIDAY! EVERY MONTH I WILL BE TRYING YOUR SUGGESTIONS TO FULFIL MY LIFE. BE AS IMAGINATIVE AS POSSIBLE! UPDATE: TASKS THIS WEEK: TO LOSE WEIGHT AND TO GO TO THE SEA AND VENT MY VEXES ON A WILD AND WINDY DAY!...KEEP EM COMING PEOPLE....LETS HAVE FUN!!!!

OK! lets get this party started! my recent post of asking you to give me your dreams and ill achieve them for you is going well! next mission... to go down to the beach and shout all vexes at the sea until feel calm.... i think everyone should do this!!!!! your on, fellow blogger...life decision number 2 is cast!

in response to my recent post asking people to give me their dreams and ill try and achieve them for you...first blogger dream...i need to lose some weight! coincidently, i havent been to good for a couple of years so this is good! the di has been cast...first decision in the bag! current weight 12 stone. 5 ft 1 inches. ideal weight 9 to 9 and a half stone... i start now! each dream you send me i will take seriously! so here goes....first life decision made!!!!

ive decided...it's up to you to decide what i do next!!!!! i want to rally up as many peoples ideas as possible about the next thing i do in my life! i want you to think about your dreams, the ones you havent achieved that you have always wanted to do and send them to me! i will try as many new things as i can until i can find my own!!! seriously! i will try every month to achieve something on the list that people send me. be creative to the max!
ive set you a task to reprogramme my life for me!
call it madness, call it the best idea ive ever had...
LETS HAVE SOME FUN!!!!!!